Just before sleep hits, there’s a space of time.
It might be in the few seconds the proverbial head hits the pillow. Maybe it’s longer, a few minutes, hours, or all damn night till right before the alarm goes off.
Your body goes through its ‘shutting-down-now’ process.
Like the No Cars Go song says: Between the click of the light and the start of the dream.
Just before letting go of consciousness, there’s opportunity.
Revisit good/bad memories.
Seethe over all enemies and plot to destroy the world.
Mentally create a grocery list.
And dammit why won’t that barking dog shut the hell up!
Sometimes in this moment I’m guilty of making up stories or writing tunes in my head, all of which will have been forgotten by morning light. Some of those stories/songs got pretty interesting, until I realized I was bastardizing the TV shows I watched earlier that night.
And now it’s 2am? Geez!
But there is a point of clarity right before that shift to sleep. I often wonder if it’s the same feeling just before drifting off into death (the non-head trauma kind of death). You get a moment to reflect. To visit your mind and see the nice and ugly things stuck there.
Perhaps that why a lot of people meditate (I should, and probably would be happier for it). It’s going to that small bridge between wake/sleep and taking control.
Fill it with peace. Fill it with happiness. Fill it with clips of the Three Stooges.
In the end, I guess it’s just about pausing and being in the present. That whole live-like-you-are-dying dogma seems to mostly work if you are aware you are actually dying. Unfathomable to some, and maybe unfortunate to those who fathom. But ‘being in the present’ is a slogan easier to chew.
If that’s the case, then why wait till the pause before sleep. Visit the mind right now. In the present.
And remember that you’re still alive.